|Entry # 1: Memory
||[May. 11th, 2005|02:27 pm]
|||||Away From Me -Evanesance||]|
It took me awhile to realize that I was not dead. I should have been dead. I didn't know why I should be, I just know that it was supposed to be. I was not dead though. The warmth of my skin and the faint breaths could tell me that.
My memory was jaded, clouded, fuzzy. I knew my own name. Rachel. Rachel was my name. I knew I had just been envolved in something important, I just didn't know what. I knew that there was someone I loved. I just didn't know who.
As the days went by my memory returned to me slowly. The war, the battles, my friends, Tobias. The war was over and we had won. My purpose in life was over.
At first I was going to return to others, but I stopped myself. I needed time to think, to find a new purpose for myself. There was no chance of me ever returning to a normal life again. My hands were far too stained for such a thing. The desire to fight, the desire to battle, that fire burned in my soul. It was awe consuming.
So instead I hid myself. I ranaway for the time being. I found a place I could temporaily call home in New Zealand. There I remain, until I can find a purpose in life again.
I miss them all dearly. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss Tobias. Please bear with my absence just a little longer, and do not forget about me.